Away we go

     I know its been a while, trying to get ajusted to taking college classes after what 20 some years. Its been an adventure so far, from WOW I really, really like this, to oh man what have I got myself into, a range of emotions, but in the end, I am so excited, I think I have found something that I not only will love doing, but I really believe I will be one of the best at Web Design, I get into this kinda stuff, I love when I know that I can do something thats complicated, and if someone has a problem, that I can go in myself and look around and figure it out, and were talking these are problems that may take hours and days to figure out, but oh the sense of accomplishment when your done!! Its just thrilling to me, some people would hate doing this, the thoughts of writing code, paragraphs of it, just to get a  couple of sentences on a page, would bore them to death, but for me it keeps me totally imersed in something, I shouldn't have down time with it, there will probably always be code that needs to  be written in this field, no getting off into my own mind to think to long and hard about anything!!! Just the way I like it baby!
     The demands of working or college classes and raising children all in the same room? It has the same drawbacks as all work at home moms have, you never have alone time, if you get to go off to an office, you are at least escaping for a while. Where you can concentrate on your work, have peace and quiet to do the best possible work you can, I am a firm believer in work like you don't need the money, and dance like no one's watching!
Its just as hard going to school at home-online, but when circumstances call for it, they just do. I am glad we at least have that option now. I try to study and sometimes I have to jump up every few minutes, I get aggravated, then sometimes Tom takes Jada to the store while Raina spends the night at nanny's and I get hours of quiet study. I think in the end the good out weighs the bad, I don't have to pay for daycare, transportation, lunch etc.
I might as well get use to juggling the kids and some type of work, I will be working from home after I graduate anyway.That was the whole point when I started this, to be able to stay at home with my husband because his hearts so very bad, hes not suppose to ever be alone, the doctors don't say if his heart stops they say when his heart stops, you will have a hour to get him to the ER.
      Things are very tight, tighter than I have ever had to deal with, Tom's mom helps him, my mom helps me, if it were not for that I don't know what would have become of us up to this point. I know that the weight of this families future is on my shoulders, its very heavy, it does depress me at times. I have two beautiful girls that make it worth getting up and fighting another day, you think if you work all of your life like my husband Tom did, that you get to rest and have a little,NOT!! For those of you that's having to live on Social Security Disablity then you know totally what I mean, I am currently raising a family of four on less than what a single household's guidelines are. That's why I can't allow myself to drown in this, my girls are depending on me, they hate our house, its so little, not near the room that we need. The day I enrolled for classes, I explained to them that mommy may not be able to play with them as often, but I would surely miss it, I was going to try to go to school at home so I could provide us with a house that actually fits us,lol.
My oldest daughter who is 7 went and got a home decorating book and circled all the things she thought would look nice in our new house someday, oh I pray the Lord blesses this venture I have decided to take, I don't want to ever,ever,disappoint them.
     I will keep everyone posted on this awesome new road Im taking, wow, back to school at 41, pray people pray.
and please comment, tell me what you think??
    

I DID IT! Back to school for a 41 year old mom

I got my 1st lessons in the mail today, I am so friggin excited!!
I am taking a career course in Web Design, the college I'm going to online is Ashworth, they are nationally accredited, and oh so very helpful, there's a 24/7 number you can call for help(student services). They send plenty of lessons you can choose to get the workbooks at home, which is what I did, I have two girls and figured it would better for me to work at my pace, or you can take the courses online then you have a timeline to finish which would be great also if your bad to procrastinate,lol. If you chose workbooks at home you can still turn in your exams online, that way they can get lessons right out to you, so that you don't run out of study material. If your interested in taking college classes for as little as $29 dollars a month let me know, I'll give you a 1 800 number so that you save $50.00 dollars on your tuition! They have career courses and also you can get your associates degree or bachlors degree's too!!!! I will go ahead and give you the number in case you just want to check it out, but if you do decide to enroll dont forget to give them my name and Id number so that you will save $50 bucks, I dont know about you, but thats alot to me!!!
      So as I work towards my goals for this year, I am very excited that I have followed through with one of them, still have plenty to work on, but plan on accomplishing each and everyone!
1. Get a closer relationship with God
2. Get up early everyday
3. Return to school, even if I have to do online classes
4. write down my goals ( which I have never done before)
5. Fit quality time in with the girls with all these new goals that I have set for myself.
6. start an exercise program
7. Lose 50 pounds this year 2010
8. Go over and help my m0m more, she's not feeling good, she's always been there for me when I needed her, and I will be there for her when she needs me.
9. Work on my marriage, and if it looks as though it more harmful to me and the girls to be married, then get a divorce this year, or at least seperation. 2010
10. Pray and study the word of God much, much, more.
11. get a Iphone or a Ipod this year, 2010

Ok so there's some of my goals, the life coaches all say start little, nothing overwhelming, so I did, some stuff on that list just has to be addressed, my husband doesn't like my girl that I had when I met him, the problem is that Tom and I also have a daughter, so if I let him stay it hurts Raina my 6yr.old and if I make him leave it hurts Jada, she's very attached to her daddy, he makes a very big difference, it hurts me so much to see him hurt my Raina, but I also saw what Raina went through when her Dad left, it completely changed her, she was a daddy's girl too, just like Jada is now with Tom.
Something has to give though, he's not going to hurt my
Raina, she feels unloved while watching him dote on Jada and tell her that she's his life!
     I feel much better since starting college classes, I know if anything does happen between us that I will be able to provide for these girls, thats alot of the reason I have let it go so long, I knew I couldn't provide for my sweet angels by myself, so watch out DH, mom's getting some schooling....lol!
change or get out!!!!

      Anyway, I just thought if anyone's keeping up, or making goals themselves, then I am willing to team up  with you and we can encourage each other when it seems to hard, everyone has those days, and everyone that has college degrees and is very successful right now had those days too, but they didn't give up and I am not going to give up either, holler at your girl, I will do everything I can to help you reach your goals too, or if you just need another woman to talk to I'm here or add me to your Yahoo IM if you have it, my id is jordan997445@yahoo.com
ok if you would like to talk to someone about college classes, how to get started, how long you have to wait on books, or how the course is, I will tell you everything I know as I go.
                              checking out my friends, blessings to you all!!!!!! Vanessa


Ashworth College: call toll free1-800-242-6512
if you decide to enroll
give them my name Vanessa Jordan and my ID#
WE0900292
and they will take $50.00 dollars off your tuition!!! ( plus they will send me a $50.00 dollar check, very much needed:)